*crickets*
Anyway... I don't know if I'm trying to push it too hard or maybe that I'm not pushing it hard enough but either way, plans I make never seem to work. It's a good thing I have Someone so much bigger, better, and more powerful making plans for my life, eh?
If you've been reading for any amount of time, you'll know that I'm graduating from UF in May. I'm excited, nervous, anxious, elated, sad, and happy all rolled into one. Most people have taken to asking me the WORST QUESTION EVER. Yes people, it's worse than the endless "Where are you from? What's your major?" that I got as a freshman. People keep asking me what I'm going to do after graduation. I tend to gulp for air, feel warm, mumble some sort of half-response, and hope they don't ask any further questions about it or I may just faint.
Seriously. I have NO CLUE what I'm doing after graduation. Well, for the first year.
Here's what I know so far:
- Graduate in May.
- Continue working in Gainesville until my apartment lease is up at the end of July.
- Do something for a year.
- Go to PA school in August 2012
As for that year-long something I have a few options. Some are far-fetched (a girl can dream, right?) while others are more practical.
- Move home, live with my parents, work as a CNA at the hospital. (Mom's really pulling for this option)
- Stay in Gainesville, sign another lease, continue working at my job and probably pick up another one at the hospital.
- Move to Colorado for the year with a friend. Split rent, find a job in a hospital out there.
- Move to Wisconsin, live with my aunt, work at a hospital.
- Last but not least, do medical missions in Haiti for 10 months. This is what I want to do most. This is where my heart is. This is why I'm probably not pursuing any other options fully, yet. Sigh.
So what should I do? I've talked seriously to MTW, emailed some other people, and talked to some missionaries that I know down there. Nothing seems to be coming to fruition. Couple that with the financial worries - raising support, knowing I have student loans in my future, etc; and the fact that my parents are too excited about the idea of their daughter moving to a 3rd world country... Do I try harder? Do I quit trying and take it that I'm not meant to go?
What should I do? Really. Tell me. There's a poll on the right. Oh and pray for me too?
Pray about it and you will find your answer! Remember to ask God to point you in the direction that He wants you to pursue and allow yourself to be open to hear.
ReplyDeleteJoining you from SITS 31DBBB
Well, coming from a girl who has lots of student loans, but has also done the missions thing, I would narrow it down to two choices:
ReplyDeleteGo to Haiti for 1 month, then move in with parents, work and save save save to pay off that debt.
or
Spend the full year in Haiti.
Of course, thats just my advice from my experience. I say choose one, move forward, and if God has something different in mind, he'll redirect your path. Personally, I couldn't imagine having that tug on my heart to "GO", and not being able to. Thats why both of my choices have Haiti in there, at least a little. :)
Thank you both for such real and encouraging comments! I really appreciate it!!
ReplyDeleteI'm doing a lot of praying and seeking. As "up in the air" as it feels right now I know that wherever I end up, it will be where God wants me to be.
Please, if you can, pray for me...for discernment and for peace. Thank you bloggy friends!